as i was saying, words are over-emphasized. really, they are a technology ill-suited to conveying the real meat of intimacy.
yet, they're all we have. abounding languages that do little but convey the same things in different sounds and cadences. each language given it's share of untranslatable terms and abstractions, but fundamentally the same machine.
words cannot convey the things the deep-trollers dredge up or seek out from the lightless depths. adjectives are finite. nouns are countable even as we create them. verbs are limited to organismic ability.
there are words that describe or label things that are infinite. the word stops short of the idea. what then? dear reader, what then, when you want to go further, dig deeper, fly it higher or make it harder?
we either don't, or try our goddamned best. we play scrabble and put it together as best we can. all the fragments. for while a thing may have a limit, hybridization, mutation, imagination may dictate otherwise.
ambiguous? well, i never said i wasn't.
you'd better learn to change your mind, and then change it back again. let your opinions and beliefs sway in a wind of your own creation. build a lullabye and then the dirge for its funeral. orchestrate the overture your pheonix.
its your reality. use it.



Scrabble For Your Strength

Foreverized
is not a word
I found in school books.
Created on the day I heard
it screaming in your looks.

I realized
that words exist
as long as I can speak them.
Structure hiding words we missed,
designs that only weaken.

Victimized
is just a word
but carries such a weight.
I bared it 'til my vision blurred
with baggage and the hate.

I scrutinized
our every word
including those unspoken
but all possibilities occured
as different states of broken.

Aclimatized
we use a word
in ways that contradict it.
Truth is just a thing incurred
however it's been scripted.

Compromise
and form the words
to mean what I believe.
Alleviated of the herds
and given room to breathe.

Improvise
and choose a word
and that is what I'll be.
Your tragedies that I endured
both kill and set me free.

Adaptalized
the words exist
to patch the weary minding
revealed with the proper twist
at the worst of my unwinding.